I’ve always loved Valentine’s Day- even though I was single for most of them up until I met my husband. Growing up, my parents made a big deal about it- with a special breakfast on valentine’s day morning little thoughtful gifts and homemade cards. I felt very loved- which carried me a long way through the teen years when all the other girls are getting roses delivered in class, and I was the shy quiet girl no one noticed.
With all those cumulative good feelings from Valentine’s day over the year, having my beta test today seemed like a happy thing. Either way, I knew I’d get a little sweet card and gift from my parents (yes, even in my late 30’s.) Mr. T isn’t big on Valentine’s day- but he usually finds a way to be sweet too.
Last night was sad. After the brown spotting and feeling especially “well”- not tired or sick or anything good- I was sure it was over. This morning, without any hope at all- I took a dollar store pregnancy test. I brought it in to show T and he hugged me and said that it looked negative. I saw a ghost line- of the baby I wouldn’t know.
An hour late, I finally dragged myself to clinic for my blood test. I fought back the tears, telling the nurse I had tested that morning and that it didn’t look like it would be a happy Valentine’s Day for me. She tried to be upbeat: “Well, you never know- it could have been a bad test.”
Driving home I couldn’t help but wonder if there was even a tiny chance she might be right. It was after all a dollar store test. I stopped at the grocery store to pick up another test- feeling silly about it, but figured this would be the last chance I’d ever have a reason to buy one anyway.
Again, without much hope, I took the test. And amazingly, the line wasn’t even faint- but a strong positive! Now the question remained- would my beta be strong enough?
The nurse just called. Beta is 440. I still can’t believe it. She emphasized that for 16 days post “ovulation”- (never mind the incredible fact that I “ovulated” 4 years ago for this pregnancy) this was a very good number.
I’m amazed and so grateful. And promise myself to enjoy each minute- hopefully for nine more months. And to never again trust a dollar store test.
Next beta is Tuesday. I’ll keep you all posted. Happy Valentine’s Day to you all!